Sunday, March 10, 2013

Stuff; in No Particular Order

CD 29, and DPO 12.

I have not taken a HPT yet. For some reason waiting is easier for me than seeing a BFN. It is almost as if the longer I wait, the longer I can hold on to hope. I did stand in front of the HPT at the store today for a about 3 minutes; debating. My DH talked me out of it since I am having AF like cramps and my temp did drop a bit this morning. He said to wait until I am late, that however, ranges from 30-35 days.

I can't believe I am actually going to say this out loud (or in print) but the other day I was sitting on the couch and a random, sudden feeling came over me. I felt warm and excited for a minute. I thought to myself "I am pregnant", then I stopped smiling and felt silly for even thinking that. I mean really, after all this trying, all these test, and all this monitoring, how could I think that I would get pregnant this easy.
During the 2WW, we (infertiles) drive ourselves crazy analyzing every symptom we experience.
It is easy to think that every thing we feel could be related to pregnancy. Maybe it is because pregnancy is something we want and crave so much. I keep thinking that I feel new symptoms, or that the symptoms I normally feel are different. I had a really weird headache that left me kinda dizzy and unable to think straight about 8 days ago and I started thinking that could have been implantation. I have been having a lot of sharp side pains and some uterus pains. When I look back at my notes, I seemed to experience the same symptoms, just maybe not as bad. I have been craving chocolate though, and that is never a good sign.

The nurse told me that my P4 level last month was so much higher because I could have dropped 5, yes FIVE, eggs. She thought that this month I could have potentially dropped 2 eggs. The elevated P4 does have some down falls. I am bloated  and have been crampy since ovulation. Not to mention that I have had low back pain now for a week. 

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On another note, I did not get the job with the ND. I am okay with that. I have been doing a lot of thinking and I think I need to buckle down and find a place I WANT to work at and that offers opportunities to advance. While the ND office may have been a great schedule, the environment was not my style, and to be honest, I want out of alternative care medicine. I am also getting tired of lots of multi taking. It has taken its toll on me; or at least this last job has. My last day at HRA is either the 15th or the 22nd. I can work til the 22nd if I want, but I am not sure I do. I am really burnt out and unmotivated since I know that I will be out of a job sooner than I would like. But, I am not going to stress about that too much. I know something will come up.

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Post Card Swap
The post card swap will take place March 25-29th. Be sure to have the postcards mailed by the 29th! I will get you your 3 addresses by the 24th, I promise. I hope this is fun and that you all get great postcards from fellow bloggers or IFers from all over the place!

Book Club
The Kitchen House was the pick of the month and I love it! I have a hard time putting it down. I even read it on my phone at the front desk the other day! I hope that you are all enjoying it  as well! One follower has already finished it! Way to go, Heather!!

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Katie, at Non Sequitur Chica sent me these awesome socks and super cute card. The card inside says "think hugs and hope". I love them. I hope she likes the ones that I sent her!

Well, I guess that is all I have for now. One day, I promise to sit down and write a meaningful, thought provoking post.


24 comments:

  1. I don't think it is silly at all to feel pregnant. I know a few of my bfp cycles, I did get the feeling I was, and I was.

    Fingers crossed for you!

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    1. I just have never had a BFP- so I am not sure why I thought this time would be so different... Im such a pessimist

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  2. I used to wait for AF to come, but now that I am on progesterone after IUIs I test only so I can stop taking that darn stuff! Hope you have no sign of AF for the next 9 months! Crossing my fingers for you. ;)

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    1. I took Progesterone one cycle- I couldn't wait to stop taking them! Or shoving them in....

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  3. I really hope those symptoms mean something more than just a visit from old AF this time! AF can just stay home. I am so excited to read the book, but I haven't gotten my hands on a copy yet! Also, can't wait for the postcard swap.

    Those are fun socks. I just love the friends we have made through blogging. It's something that I am supremely thankful for and wish that we could be friends in real life, not just electronically! I do consider you a friend now Teresa, and I am extremely grateful for your constant encouragement.

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    1. I can't wait for the postcard swap! Getting mine next week.

      I can never wait to take a test! Lol that is why I buy in bulk from amazon! Ha ha ha. It is so much cheaper!

      Good luck with your BFP :-)

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    2. I would love to announce a BFP! I have been waiting to do that for 2+ years now! The book is awesome and I am excited about the PC Swap too!! I am so ho happy so many people wanted in! Amber, I too, consider you a friend! I am so thankful for all of you! That made my day!

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    3. What a GOOD idea to buy in bulk from Amazon. Why haven't I ever thought of that? I live in a small down and always make sure I go OUT of town to buy my HPT!

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    4. eBay has the best prices under the "buy now" section. I got like 30 tests for five bucks plus free shipping. They have OPKs as well. But OPKs can be difficult to interpret in general so I don't buy those.

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  4. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!! I also need to go post card shopping!

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    1. Thank, Megan! Ya, so happy you are participating!!

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  5. Anxiously waiting for you to pee on something!

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  6. I hope your feeling was correct and we will be reading about your BFP soon!!! sending you lots of baby dust!!

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    1. Thanks! I am so scared to test.... dreading the BFN!

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  7. Yes, I am currently driving myself crazy over analyzing everything, so I know what you mean. Wishing this is it for you!!!

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    1. It is crazy! I hate it and love it! Best of luck to you!!

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  8. I hope your gut is on target, friend!

    I'm going to have to take part in some marathon reading sessions. I'm still trying to finish the loooong book I was reading before we picked out the book club book. I can't put one down and pick it up again later!

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    1. Me too!
      The book is awesome! It is a lot like The Help!

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  9. It's so hard to analyze and over analyze every little thing. On the times that I had my BFP I knew for sure that I was. And, I did have those AF symptoms and a full feeling down there. Some of it can be the progesterone and other meds causing those symptoms, but usually instincts are right! I'm hoping yours are right!!!!

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    1. I have had the worst low back pain for a week now... not normal. I hope I get a BFP!

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  10. I sure hope your feeling was right. I wouldn't exactly say it was "this easy" if you were pregnant this month.

    I have to get reading. I haven't even bought the book yet! I'm slacking!

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    1. You and I can be slackers together, Jen. I'm in good company. ;)

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