I get so sick of saying that month after month. My odds of getting pregnant should not be equivalent to my odds of winning the lottery (I don't play the lottery, I play hide and seek with a fucking stork). This is utter bullshit. We have been TTC for so long now and I hate the emotional roller coaster. It is not fair. Just not fair. I deserve to be pregnant. I deserve to be a mom!
Deep down I knew I was going to get a BFN. But part of me thought that maybe if I changed my thinking and really focused on a BFP, that just maybe... it would happen. I really thought I was having new symptoms and when AF didn'y show yesterday I thought maybe I was! When I told my DH that I actually thought I was pregant this month and he said "I think you are pregnant every month." He is always positive.
Every time I get a BFN I start doubting myself; and the doctor. I know that it is not right nor is it fair. I just feel like I need to blame something, someone. I mean there has to be something we are missing, something that is preventing me from conception.
My mind starts to wonder and all of a sudden I want to get an third opinion. I start thinking that surely someone else will know what to do and will quickly get us pregnant; as if they had a magic wand or something.