Thursday, February 7, 2013

Still not pregnant

Yep, that is correct, another BFN. I am 12 DPO (I think) and the test was a stark white, not even the slightest line appeared. I am not pregnant. 

I let myself enjoy the "robust" progesterone number long enough. Time to face reality; this is the beginning of the end for cycle #19!

I have a call into my nurse to see what we do next. I wanted to add the left over Menopur into my regime with Femara, but I am not sure we need to quite yet. I seem to ovulate pretty well with Femara alone. Since this was our first cycle off BCP, we did little monitoring. I am thinking that we should try the 7.5mg Femara again, with labs and U/S before we move on to new plan of action. My DH needs to do another SA as well; since the last one was in 2011.

This morning I looked over at my DH after the negative test and told him I was not sure I wanted to try IVF. I asked him about adoption. I think that was all said out of despair and grief. The negative pregnancy results truly take a toll on my mind, body and spirit. 

Like many times before, once I snap out of it, I am ready to try again. Ready to try anything! Ready to give it my all!

So, today I will take my time processing this negative test and tomorrow I will put on my big girl panties and figure out what we are going to do.

Have a great day, everyone! Thanks in advance for all your support! 



10 comments:

  1. I know that coming out of a failed cycle makes up think about all our options and makes us realize how much it sucks to have to try again. Take a few days for yourself whether it is a nice glass of wine, chocolate or breaking something.

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  2. Sorry for the bfp. Like you, I usually spend a day or two feeling really sorry for myself, but then move on and figure out what is next. Only you, and your hubby of course, can figure out what the next best course of action will be. All I can say is good luck!! And here's a hug from me :)

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    1. Thanks, Amber! What a bummer. I wish I knew WHY exactly it is so hard for us. Sometimes i wish I was under 24 hours watch so that we could figure out just WHAT my body does and when! I hate the guess work! Maybe IVF is what we need.... but even then there is no guarantee. As you know all too well. It just sucks.
      Thanks for the hug!

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  3. Hang in there lady! You had some awesome things happen with this cycle so keep that in mind. Hugs!

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  4. Sorry for the bad news. It's ok to take some time to feel sorry for yourself before deciding what the next steps will be.

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    1. I stayed home from work and had a pity party. Back to reality tomorrow!

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  5. Grr...I know this routine is so getting old. I hope you feel good about the next steps in your strategy. Wishing you the best

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    1. Thanks, jAllen! I actually grabbed the POAS out of the trash just to see the evap lines-- stupid, I know.

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