Quitters Never Win

Just when I think I have it all figured out.

I wanted to get off birth control and start trying again with injections; like the doctor recommended in September. He wanted to try the "drop down" method. But since the meds were unavailable at the time, and because we were thinking about IVF after our second opinion at Oregon Reproductive Medicine, we didn't go forward with the 3rd cycle of injection stimulation. We wanted our cycles to be maximized and the doctor didn't seem real positive with my response to the stimulation drugs. Since September I have been on birth control. While my periods are regular, and very light, I am unable to try to conceive which has totally bummed me out.

So we decided that we were going to start again this year, and here we are! I put in a call to the doctor today to ask him if we could start treatments again. Since we last spoke he looked through my chart again and decided that he thinks my cycles with the injections were "sub-optimal" and that if we were going to try that route again, we  should save our money to put toward IVF. 

Because of the PCOS, he is highly concerned with over-stimulation. I have, at the beginning of a cycle, anywhere from 39-60 follicles and maturing even half of those would be horrible! So, I get it. Even if I don't like it. 

He thinks that we can try more rounds of Femara with IUI's. I respond to the oral  medication the same way I was responding to the more expensive medications. I tend to produce 1 mature follicle on the right side with the oral meds as well as the injectable. 

I am suppose to stop my birth control pills and when my cycle starts I am to call into the office and they will call in the Femara. I am waiting to see if we can bump it up from 5mg to 7.5mg since my ovaries are very stubborn! 

Me? Stubborn? No way!

I feel positive. I mean, of course there are days (many of them) that I feel helpless and ready to give up- but today is NOT one of those days! I have heard and read about so many success stories these past few days that is it nearly impossible not to be positive and hopeful!

Keep your fingers crossed for us as we embark on this journey once again. A journey full of drugs, lab work, needles, pee on a sticks, doctors, questions, answers, tears and laughter.