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Sorry about my horribly nasty and negative post a couple days ago. I forget sometimes that I should process things before vomiting my emotions all over everyone.

After I wrote the bitchy post I decided to make myself a juice, read some blogs, and burn off some negativity. I might have woken up in bad mood but I didn't have to stay that way. And I didn't.

I was going to do 30, then 45, then decided 60 would do.

Spinach, celery, cucumber, lime (rind included), ginger, carrot, grape, pineapple, strawberry. 

I am a little saddened every time I see my chart, but then I try and remind myself two things. One, I ovulated on my own and that right there is a great accomplishment. Two, this was suppose to be our rest time, a time to let go of the pressure and stress of ttc. 

After I wrote the post I felt like a real ass. I mean, I have read numerous blog posts or articles about the evil TI and IF from the man's perspective. I've heard it straight; I have even shared the writings with Mike so that he knew, that I knew, we were not alone and so that he knew it wasn't just him; but he already knew that. He never takes anything personal. So, after I burned off some frustration on the elliptical for 64 minutes I regrouped and accepted that it was what it was... and even though our chances are slim, there's still a chance.

Anyone who has been ttc knows that there is nothing worse than the dreaded TI. I think I hate it more than the 2WW. There is so much more pressure involved than one might imagine. There's nothing spontaneous about TI. I wish I could "hide" it from the hubby, but we have been at this for far too long; he knows my cycle better than I do, I swear. I am sure that my emotions play a big part of his "knowledge" but none the less, ovulation is not something I can hide. So, it is not like I can "trick" him into sex. 

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In other news, I may have a job! I say "may" because they want to see if I can learn the software and procedures of the office before they make a final offer. I went in last week and shadowed for a few hours and then returned the next day to have lunch with the staff just so that we could all get a feel for each other. After the lunch they called and asked if I would come in a work this week while the doc was out and when he gets back they will evaluate and go from there.

If I didn't know the doctor personally and if he didn't approach me about the job I am not sure I would go through all this with out the commitment of a position. But, the doctor is super cool and his staff is really great. I can also appreciate the fact that they want to make sure they hire the right person for the office and the team. I was just as picky when it came to excepting a job.

I hope that by the time we come back from California they will have a permanent position for me. We leave the 20th and return the 27th and then the office is closed for the week of July 4th, so my start date, as discussed in my "interview" or lack there of, would be the 9th.

The other great thing I like about the office is that when the doctor is gone, usually no one is on the office. I won't get paid for the weeks we don't work, of course, but I am not complaining about ANY time off! 

What else? 

Oh, I had THREE nieces graduate this past weekend from high school! Sadly, we didn't make it to any. One was in Redmond, one was in the valley, and one was in California. We decided if we couldn't go to all, we wouldn't go to one; besides, I really didn't want to sit through 2 hours of graduation anyways! They all understood.

One will be going to Cal Poly for track and getting her teaching degree, the other will be in West Virgina playing water polo and getting her masters in business, and one will be in Seattle getting her degree in ecology. I already have a nephew at UC Berkeley majoring in civil engineering and playing football and a niece at Fresno getting her bachelors! I am such a proud aunt. All 17 nieces and nephews that I have are phenomenal kids and athletes.  I have no doubt they will all go far.

Miss WV Bound- on the right

The Cal Poly Mustang (and the brother) UC Berkeley Bear

The Seattle Pacific Falcon

 My niece that is going to Cal Poly sent me a Facebook message one day that said "Auntie Teresa I must be thinking about you because I had a dream about you last night. I dreamt that God blessed you and Uncle Mike with a baby!" I guess she also told my sister (her mom) that maybe by the time she gets married we will have a baby so that our child can be in her wedding. I just love that girl. She really is amazing. I read her captions on her IG photos and get chills. She is so smart when it comes to life, love and perseverance. Seriously, the girl has drive!

Ahhh, okay I will stop braggin about my amazing family....

On the juicing front things are going well. I have a had a couple nasty drinks but I am learning. I will tell you one thing; I don't care how small of a beet I use, you can still taste that puppy. It is not my favorite. Other than that the juices are surprisingly satisfying; and it is good to know that I am finally getting the  nutrients I need. I will also be extremely honest and tell ya that I even see a difference in my stools. The juicing is beating out the metformin! Yahoo! And since I have been increasing my activity, decreasing my carbs, and the artificial sugars (which I never thought I could do) I have even dropped a few pounds already!

And last... sadly, I noticed today, that I had lost a "follower". Noticing that just goes to show that I need a job! Ha ha! Seriously though, losing followers makes me kinda sad, and yes, I do take it kind of personally, but then again, I take everything personally; just ask Mike!

I guess that is all I've got for now... I am off to study dental codes!