Wednesday, April 24, 2013

IUI #3

First off, what a gorgeous day! The weather was fantastic here in Bend and in Eugene! Our drive over the pass was quick and easy. Gotta love that! We had great conversations on the way over. It is always nice to spend uninterrupted one on one time with each other. We talked about the usual stuff: work, political crap, vacations, and parenthood. But this time we also talked about how well he thought he would do having to masturbate in a doctor's office instead of at home. He confidently said that it was not going to be a problem. And low and behold it wasn't!

We got to the clinic a little early; we were asked to be there at noon. Shortly after we go there the nurse called Mike back. I smiled at him and chuckled and away he went. I sat in the waiting room nervous for him. It was only 10 minutes later that I heard the bathroom door open and out he came. Grinning from ear to ear (for a few reasons I am sure). The nurse directed us to come back in an hour. 

Once we got out of the door I high fived him! He thought he was in there longer than he was so he was surprised to see that we were in and out within 20 minutes! To celebrate his performance we went to do a little shopping at Cabella's. He deserved it!

We got back to the clinic shortly before 1pm and were taken back with out much of a wait. The poor NP didn't have a voice and Mike forgot his hearing aids. So I had to repeat everything to him! She was sweet; I have never met her before. She came in with Mike's sperm count and it was freaking fantastic! 

Here are the results:

When I talked to the nurse on Tuesday she said that we might do another follicle check to see if the endometrium really was only at 4mm before we do the IUI. However, when I got there they were already set up for the IUI. After a few minutes of discussing the cycle with the NP she decided that we would go ahead with the it and then we would do the ultrasound afterwards. She said that she has seen numerous pregnancy occur with thin lining. That was not a real concern of hers. 

After the IUI, which was relatively painless, but somewhat crampy, we went down the hall and into the ultrasound room. She checked the lining and it was actually just under 10mm! She was very pleased with it. Then she decided that she would check my ovaries. The right side had my usual cyst from my PCOS and no follicles worth mentioning, but we knew that. When she got to the left side; the side with the 20.4mm follicle, she couldn't find it! My heart sank. I knew this was not the news we wanted. I could hear it in her voice. She decided to go get Dr.A to have him look at it. He came in an took another look. He said my lining was "beautiful" and he said that I had a beautiful corpus luteum, maybe two. Oh, SHIT! We messed up the timing. AGAIN! The follicle had ruptured. I had ovulated before the IUI.


Dr. Austin requested that we run a progesterone blood test to make sure that was in fact the case. We should have those results tomorrow or Friday. He thinks that we should be okay with the timed intercourse prior and with the IUI. So, now, we just wait and see. I asked him before we were all done what he suggested happen next. Of course, he leans toward IVF. He says it is hard to tell why I am not getting pregnant, other than timing. There is a good chance that I could have less that optimal eggs or that we produce bad embryos and the only way to say for sure is through IVF. After we expressed our understanding as well as our concerns he told us that they would be willing to "carry a bill" for our IVF. That made me feel good. IVF is usually a "payment upfront" kinda deal.

I came home, put on my sweats, went out to the living room, and stood at Mike's chair. He looked up, asked me what was up, and I broke down. I cried, and told him how sad I am and that my body was dumb. That I failed, again. He got up, pulled me close and said: "Please don't put yourself down. You can be sad, but please don't say things like that." He hugged me tight and whispered "This is not your fault. Don't give up! I love you". I am reminded in times like this how much strength he gives me. "I love you, too, Spanky" I laughed.

So there you have it. That is how my third IUI went.  Let the dreadful 2WW begin! 

Keep the prayers coming! 


47 comments:

  1. What a roller coaster ride this journey is. Too many ups and downs and everything in between. Best of luck. It's not over till AF shows up. :)

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    1. It is a ride for sure. Someday I am going to have to ask to get off. Hopefully after a BFP!

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  2. Ugh, as a fellow "early ovulator" I feel your frustration. It always pissed me off. You just never know though. I hope you and your hubby can find strength in each other during these two weeks. He's a great guy!

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    1. Normally I ovulate late- that trigger f*cks with me! UGH!!! I hope that we nailed it. My husband is pretty great. So it yours! What a post he wrote! Loved it!

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    2. Careful.. His head is big enough already.

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  3. Wow that was a great semen analysis from hubby and a great lining for you!! If the Dr says you are fine with the TI and IUI, try to believe him during the 2ww. I am sending you tons of good vibes!

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    1. Yes, he had a great SA! But then I was reminded of how difficult I AM! UGH! I feel horrible at times. As if it is my fault. I hope this 2WW goes by quickly and we can figure out what is next for us- beside a VACATION!

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  4. Reading this post brought back many memories for me. I had 2 cycles of IUI in 1995. The first went to completion but was unsuccessful and the second failed at the first hurdle as my ovaries over-stimulated. Back then the Doctors would crap themselves if that happened because of multiple birth and the health implications too. In the end my husband I split before we could try again...the strain was just too much. There wasn't the internet back then and I think if there had have been the support I could have had would have gotten me through it. I am now 38 and still have no children, it makes me so sad. However worse for me is that by 1999 I had pretty much dealt with the fact that I would not be a mother and I had managed to move on with my life only to fall pregnant in 2001. Sadly it was ectopic so I lost my baby and a Fallopian tube. I managed to conceive 3 more times after that (amazingly) but miscarried them all. My Dr's just called in 'Unexplained Infertility'
    I wish you all the luck in the world and I am sending you positive thoughts...my only regret is that I couldn't be strong enough to fight for my marriage. Good luck xxx

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    1. Thank you for sharing. I am really worried that the problem lies within my eggs. However, IVF is they only way to tell. Im so scared. We have to pay out of pocket for ALL IF stuff, so we really have to budget and plan. I am not working (nor am I ready to) so we have to really be smart about it. I will have to return to work someday. I am so sorry for all of your losses. I can't imagine that pain. I feel selfish at times when I hurt for the baby I never had, when those like you lost the baby you cold have had.

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  5. Sending every happy vibe your direction!! Best of luck!!

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    1. Thanks! We will take all the good vibes we can!

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  6. His numbers are great! I'm sorry that you ovulated earlier than you were hoping, but I have everything crossed that the doctor is right and that between the TI and IUI, this is your cycle.

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    1. He had great numbers! I was proud. So was he! I ovulate wrong EVERY time! Timing really seems to be our issue.

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  7. Prayers being send your way!!

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  8. Hi from ICLW - Good luck on your IUI cycle!!! Can I ask if your taking any fertility meds? To be quite honest with a lining of 4mm the chances of implantation are really low. Why are they not giving you estrogen to thicken your lining before your IUI? Are you on clomid because that can really thin your lining? I did 6 IUI's all with perfect follicles and great sperm counts and all were negative. We did IVF and found that my eggs have a thicker shell which makes it harder for sperm to penetrate. Just wanted to share...

    I am sorry if this comes across as brass but you are going thru so much to have a baby and you should have a dr who is doing everything and anything to make sure your pregnant. Please advocate for yourself.

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    1. My lining was at 10mm when we saw the RE. No need for meds to help that at this point. I was on Femara (my 6th round) we have done clomid and HMG injections twice. BFN every time. My RE is wonderful and we are working together to try to avoid IVF as long as possible and to say within out financial means! We are doing our best with treatments and monitoring 3 hours away from his office! ;-) Thanks so much for the advice and concern!

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  9. I am just sending so many thoughts your way. You have such a supportive hubby!!! All this can be so frustrating but you're hubby is right...none of this is under your control. All my fingers and toes are crossed!

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    1. You are so sweet. Thank you so much! I hate not having control. Infertility is really testing me!

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  10. I'm sorry your egg escaped too soon. I hope that the TI did it and you are good this month!

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  11. I haven't done an IUI yet, but I've already worried about this scenario! It seems like they time it so close to ovulation, it must happen fairly frequently that they miss ovulation. But with TI + the IUI, and with such good sperm counts from your husband, I'd say you definitely still have a chance!

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    1. I sure hope so! Best of luck to you when you get to the IUI! It really is close but if timed right it could be winner!

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  12. Prayers are flowing your way ((HUGS))

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  13. Stopping in for ICLW. I'm sorry the timing was off for the IUI, but prayers are being said that it all works out anyways. And I'm so glad to hear you have a great support system in your husband!

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    1. My husband is amazing. I am blessed.
      I hope we have a chance. Time will tell...

      Thank you for stopping by!

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  14. Oh goodness! You poor thing. It is so hard not to get down on ourselves for our broken bodies. I hope that it still works this month. But if not, remember how blessed you are to have such a wonderful relationship with your hubby. He sounds fantastic!

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    1. It is just so devastating at times. I was feeling blue today and I was able to "paint myself another color" by reminding myself of the wonderful things I do have! He is a great reminder of the happiness I am blessed with already.

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  15. Oh man! I know this feeling all too well. You have a great man by your side and that's half the battle. I will pray for you as I pray for all the folks battling this evil thing we call infertility.

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  16. Looks like we are on the same timing- I did IUI #5 this Wednesday as well. I didn't have an monitoring after an ultrasound on Monday (2 at 20mm), so hoping we caught the eggs....just like hoping you caught yours with that IUI! Fingers crossed for you...

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    1. Good luck! Please keep me posted!! I am wish you the best!

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  17. Oh, that bugger of an egg! I wonder if the same hasn't happened to me - they never checked after any of my IUIs.

    I'm sure there were plenty of spermies that found it through TI beforehand and the IUI - there is a good 24 hour window after it's released, isn't there? Will be thinking of you wishing you a speedy and good-feeling 2WW!

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    1. I hope we are covered with the TI and IUI! We were going to do the US first, but the SA was ready to go. So we decided to wait. UGH! I hope we nailed it. WE will know soon! Not soon enough!

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  18. Hi from ICLW. I hope you did have the timing covered - I know that is tough with IUI. It's a good thing to be in a good partnership through it all!

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    1. I am in love with my DH even more through all this. I hope we are good to go as well! Thank you for coming by!

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  19. So sorry you had to experience this! It's hard not to feel like our bodies have failed us sometimes with all the letdowns. However, I am hoping that this two week wait still ends in great news for you guys! Mike is a trooper too!

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    1. Thanks, Sadie. It is so hard sometimes to not blame myself. It is weird to think that when I say "I failed" or "I am broken" that it hurts Mike more than to know a baby may not be in our future.

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  20. Sending prayers!

    It is wonderful that Mike is so supportive and loving to you. That is a blessing.

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  21. I am sorry that you ovulated early. :( How did that happen? Don't you use the trigger injection?

    Your husband sounds like a keeper. :)

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    1. We did use the trigger. I hope that I had JUST ovulated. My P4 was at .98- so we didn't ovulate too far in advance if at all.

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  22. First, mike is a champ! Seriously. To go in with such confidence, and finish so quickly? My husband would be jealous. Actually, he would be mortified that I am even discussing him right now! Haha! Mike is also a champ for being so supportive and loving to you. I love him for that

    The first time we did IUI was pretty traumatic for both Hubby and I. We just wanted it to work and it ended up being so stressful for the both of us. We have since become pros, or at least able to go more with the flow. Thank goodness, because that first time was terrible!

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    1. He is truly confident almost always, really. Even when he shouldn't be; like when he put in our doggie door--- oh man! LOL

      I think the first few times it was a little hard, but like you, we have it down now. Even the hip placement during TI- it's a science. LOL!

      FX!

      PS- I am getting sooooo excited for you!!!!

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  23. I hope your TWW is going well... I had my 3rd IUI on 4/26. And just like you, I had thin lining at my check the day of trigger, so I made them look again on IUI day. It had bumped up to 11! But, I had also already ovulated. For some reason my RE schedules the IUI 40 hours after trigger. Anyway, crossing my fingers for both of us!!

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